Ang kanser ng lipunan

Tama! Nakita ko na ang pisikal na manipestasyon ng kanser ng lipunan! Nanood kami kanina ng Rated K, at nandoon siya! Oo, tao ang tinutukoy kong kanser ng lipunan. Pero, teka...tao ba siya? Si Madame Auring!

"May asim pa ako, may asim pa ako..."

Ampucha...nakakaiyak. Nandidiri pa rin ako. It's like, ewww...Huhuhuhu...Iligtas niyo ako. Think of happy thoughts. Think of happy thoughts. Think of happy thoughts. Think of happy thoughts. Think of happy thoughts. Think of happy thoughts...


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Nanonood ba kayo ng Kap's Amazing Stories sa channel 7? Napansin niyo ba kung gaano kapangit mag-narrate ni Bong Revilla?

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Tulong! Hindi ko alam kung ano ang results ng weekly top ten hits ng MYX. Kailangan ko lang kasi.

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Congrats kay Manny Pacquiao. Hindi ko lang napanood yung laban niya kasi nag-aral ako sa kwarto ko - kaya lang nakatulog ako pagkatapos kong basahin yung libro sa theology. Wala rin. Na-drain yung mga binasa ko. Information overload kasi. Hindi kinaya ng utak ko.

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Information overload din sa aesthetics. Sa color pa lang, wasted na ang utak ko.

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Wasted. As in wasted....WASTED!!!!

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Malamang mag-o-all nighter ako. Iiyak na ako...=(

Anong weekend? Walang weekend-weekend.

Detailed Brainstorming:


+ Para ring ewan ang mga tao, ano? Noong kasagsagan ng pananamantala ng bagyong Frank, lumubog ang barkong MV Princess of the Stars. Marami ang mga namatay, nawawala pa rin, at naghihinagpis. Galit ang mga mag-anak ng mga PiIipinong nadamay sa pangyayari, sinisisi nila ang Sulpicio lines dahil lumarga sila sa dagat kahit na may bagyo. Sa kabilang banda, maraming mga Pilipino ang nagalit, nainis, at nabanas dahil kinansela ang mga flight nila dahil sa bagyo. Kung bumagsak kaya ang mga eroplanong sinakyan nila kung sakaling hindi kinansela ang mga biyahe noon, ano kaya ang gagawin ng mga kamag-anak nila? Shetness indicator needed.

+ Yehey! May kopya na ako ng pelikulang Monster (Charlize Theron at Christina Ricci) c/o my tito. Ang bagal kasi ng bittorrent ko, kaya sa office nila ako nagpa-download. Sana magawa ko na maski first draft lang ng paper ko sa Western History tungkol sa pelikulang 'to.

+ Masaya yung pangalawang quiz namin sa FA101 Intro to Aesthetics. Just decide whether the picture shown is an art or not. Hindi madali dahil nagtatalo ang konsepto mo ng kung ano ang art at yung art na batay lang sa depinisyon na dapat may formal elements ito tulad ng lines, color, texture, etc.

+ Kahit papaano matutupad yung dati kong pangarap na mag-aral ng Fine Arts sa UP. Kahit papaano lang, kasi sa susunod na linggo may bibisita sa aming Fine Arts teacher galing sa UP para sa FA 101. Wow naman! Excited na nga ako e. Bago naman ako nagdesisyong tahakin ang pagsusulat ay Fine Arts sa UP ang course na talagang pangarap ko. Pero mahal ko na ang CW!!!

+ Bowen Best, di kita malilimutan. Pati na rin yung sinulat mong short story na pinamagatang Who Inspired Me?.

+ Emmanuel Lacaba, henyo ka. Pero ayoko kitang maging kaklase, sobrang talino mo, at ang galing-galing mong magsulat. Kung buhay ka pa rin ngayon, marahil ay guro ka rin sa Ateneo, o di kaya ay sa UP. O sumusulat ka pa rin para sa bayan.

+ Arthur Rimbaud, sa pagkakaalala ko, lalaki rin yung pinakamatagal mong nakarelasyon. At hindi lang yun, may asawa pa siya.

+ Kasama ng buhay kolehiyo ang orgs. Umaasa akong makakapasa ako sa mga panayam sa akin ng dalawang samahan/org ngayong darating na linggo.

+ Gusto ko rin sanang sumali sa CAPES, kaya lang baka hindi kayanin ng oras ko. Bukod sa org activities kasi, kailangan ko pa ring magtrabaho sa OAA at maglaan din ng oras para sa pahinga ko.

+ Gusto ko rin sanang sumali sa Toujin, pero di ko na yata kaya yun. Hindi naman ako ganun ka-otaku. O kaya sa FAS/ Freelance Art Society, kaya lang gusto ko sanang magpokus sa pagsusulat ngayon.

+ Yung litsoc/literary society ok sana, kaya lang puro English works lang yata ang saklaw nila. At ang oras. Kung nabibili man ang oras, kukulangin pa rin ako nito.

+ Nagkaroon ng send-off mass kanina sa Church of Gesu. Ayos yung mga bells na tumutunog kanina noong palabas na kami ng simbahan, nakakaaliw. Kaya lang sabi ng isa kong kaibigan - na bigla na lang nawala pagkatapos naming ihulog yung attendance slip namin sa dropbox - nakakatakot daw yun lalo na kapag gabi tumunog at nag-iisa ka lang na naglalakad. Oo nga naman, spooky. Pang-horror movie ang effect.

+ Magtratrabaho ako sa Comelec sa darating na Sanggu election para makadagdag sa service hours ko - at syempre kasama na doon yung pagsisilbi. Kabilang ako sa day group. Sana sapat na yun para mapunan ang mga oras na kailangan kong magtrabaho.

+ Transcendence: Nose-bleed. Rahnan. Zoren and Kier Legazpi. Lost. Mystery. Questions. Unanswered. Human Person. Infinte Knowledge. Infinite Love. Infinite Life. The Island. The Vast Ocean. The Horizon. Where is God?

+ Theo group project. Naha-hassle na ang utak ko kakaisip kahit na hindi kailangang lubusin ang pag-iisip. Naprapraning lang talaga ako.

+ "Grow up, Ace!" - regarding my immaturity in sex education.

+ Argh. Wala na kaming weekend. Wala na akong weekend.

+ Aristotle. Ang pinakasikat na estudyante. Nabanggit na yata sa lahat ng klase ko ang terminong MIMESIS - maliban na lang sa PE132 Tai Chi.

+ "Betch..."

why do we have to ask other "people" to know ourselves?

Pinakuha ko ang kuya ko ng test sa handwritingwizard.com. Nakakatawa, kasi hindi tulad nung results ng sa akin, hindi daw reliable para sa kanya yung results niya kasi maraming flaws (o in denial siya na ganun nga siya?).

Atsaka, alam mo ba na malaki ang tendency na magkapareho ang sulat ng mga magkakapamilya dahil sa similarities ng bone structure sa mga kamay nila - tulad naming tatlo nina kuya at mama (hindi ko masyadong nakikita ang sulat ng daddy ko kaya hindi ko naipagkukumpara).



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Welcome Daryl Marra, here is your handwriting analysis.

Daryl uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Daryl does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.

Daryl will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.

Daryl is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Daryl doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Daryl is sensitive to criticism about his ideas and philosophies. He will sometimes worry what people will think if he tells them what he believes in. This doesn't mean he won't talk, or that he feels ashamed. It merely means he is sensitive to what others think, regarding his beliefs.

Daryl will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Daryl's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Daryl slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Daryl can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Daryl's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Daryl that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Daryl also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Daryl is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Daryl's self-concept is artificially low. Daryl will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Daryl to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Daryl is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Daryl is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Daryl has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Daryl exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Daryl allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Daryl has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Daryl has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Daryl fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then Daryl has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life.

The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. Daryl seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action.

Daryl seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with Daryl on a team, because Daryl will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Daryl if he is not careful.

Why do I have to ask other "people" to know myself?

My handwriting analysis, from http://handwritingwizard.com/
Parang totoo...

Rachel is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Rachel will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Rachel an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Rachel is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Rachel is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Rachel doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Rachel is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Rachel is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

In reference to Rachel's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Rachel slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Rachel can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Rachel is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Rachel basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Rachel is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Rachel is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Rachel changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Rachel feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

Rachel has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Rachel exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Rachel allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Rachel has a vivid imagination.

oxy-moron

Hay, walang pasok bukas pero pupunta pa rin ako sa school para sa aesthetics groupwork namin. May NSTP naman ako sa Sabado. Kailangang ayusin na namin yung group project sa Theology. Wala na akong pahinga!!! Second week pa lang 'to ha...paano na kaya kung midterms at finals na?

I feel shitty

Yap. Yap. I downloaded Jason Mraz's recent album. I don't wanna miss it, not after SOMEBODY borrowed my Mr. A-Z approximately a year ago and THAT somebody didn't even bother to admit that she lost it (or that she wanted it for herself). I'm gonna listen to it while I study for SA21.

I forgot to pick up my readings in Sec B - which sucks. So I researched on my own about Socio and Anthro. Fine. I'm also gonna cram reading the readings tomorrow. Super fine.

I also forgot to go to MVP for the size of my NSTP shirt. That means I'll end up with a shirt sized large.

It's still early but staying in front of my laptop for hours makes me sleepy.

Damn those seeds and leechers. Can't download the movie Monster.

Read the first chapter of Breaking Dawn (sssshhhhh....secret!).

Kung hindi ako nabubuhay sa nakaraan, nabubuhay ako sa hinaharap.

Nalimutan kong Martes nga pala ngayon at hindi Lunes. Nasanay kasi akong ang PE ko ay tuwing Martes at Huwebes, at hindi tuwing Lunes at Miyerkules tulad ngayong 1st sem ng sophomore year ko. Nagugulo tuloy ang planner ko, pati mga taong nasa paligid ko nahahawa na sa pagkalito ko. Ginagagad nila ako e.

Haha, bagong bokabularyo para sa araw na ito (actually, last week pa): PANGGAGAGAD. Ibig sabihin, panggagaya. Yikee. Parang pikhukhu.

Tatlong instruktor na ng Filipino sa Ateneo ang napansin kong pinagtripan ang upuan/chair. Una, si Sir Derain na tinulungan kami sa paghimay sa isa sa mga pinakasikat na tula sa Pilipinas: "Ako ay tutula, mahabang-mahaba. Ako ay uupo, tapos na po." Sa kalagitnaan ng kawalan ng pag-asang tuluyang mahimay nang maayos ang nasabing tula ay hinatak niya ang isang upuan at inilagay sa plataporma sa harapan ng klase. Binigkas niya ang tula, sabay ng pagkilos ayon dito. Haha, hindi ko yun makakalimutan. Palagay ko isang mahabang "aaahhhhh" lang ang naging reaksiyon ko nun.

Pangalawa ay si Sir Egay, na pinakilala sa amin ang salitang pikhukhu (tama ba yung spelling?). Tinawag naming pikhukhu ang isang upuan - para maipakitang ang wika ay isang texto. Haha, "iyan ay isang pikhukhu," pero iyon pa rin yung bagay na mas nakilala natin bilang isang "upuan." Mag-iba man yung tawag, yun pa rin yun. Parang ang labo ng pagpapaliwanag ko. ^.^

Pangatlo ay si Sir Tenorio. Ginawa niyang halimbawa ang isang upuan para maipakita sa amin ang paniniwala ni Platon na ang totoong mundo ay hindi ang materyal na mundo - na siyang ginagalawan natin - kundi ang mundo ng mga konsepto. "Hindi totoo 'yang upuan na 'yan! Ang totoo lamang ay ang konsepto nito." Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin maisip kung paano mabubuhay ang mga tao sa mundo na pawang konsepto lamang. Kailangan pa rin naman ng mga materyal na bagay para maisakatuparan ang mga konseptong pinaniniwalaan ni Platon.

At iyon, ang kwento ng mga upuan. Bow. Cute di ba? =)

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Sabi ni Sir Brion, "what you write is who you are." At bigla kaming natakot na makilala ang mga sarili namin.

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Kailangang harapin ang lifestyle ng isang full-time college student. Ano ba - para sa akin - ang isang full-time college student? Syempre dapat nag-aaral. Dedicated. Motivated. Mahaba ang pasensya. Di basta sumusuko. Leader - kung kinakailangan. Willing member - kung okay yung leader. Active - hello to co-curricular activities and orgs. May passion sa major - kumbaga sa akin, creative writing. Walang distractions - no boyfriend para sa akin kahit na gusto ko o papayagan ako ng mga minamahal kong magulang; good influence na mga kaibigan (kasama na yan sa mga perks ng college life).

At para maging isang full-time college student (di lang basta full-time, scholar na rin), kailangan kong magkaroon ng org. Yung org na kinikilala, pero at the same time ay nagbe-benefit ako. Hindi lang pangpaganda sa resume ko sa hinaharap, kundi para mahasa ako bilang isang manunulat, o maski bilang isang "tao", at the very least.


Kung kinakailangan, hihiwalayan ko muna ang boyfriend ko.



















JOKE. Wala talaga akong boyfriend. Haha, maniwala uto-uto. =D




Ayun lang. At kanina pa ako nababagot kakahintay sa YM sa mga groupmates ko sa Aesthetics. May balak pa man din akong mag-aral ngayong gabi, kaya lang hindi ako mapalagay na hindi pa ayos yung groupwork namin sa aesthetics. This sucks.

Nagda-download din ako ng VLC player para mai-play ko ang dinownload ko na pelikulang Monster nina Charlize Theron at Christina Ricci na required para sa reflection paper namin sa Western History. .MOV file kasi e, hindi yun tumatalab sa Windows Media Player o Winamp. Napaka-outdated ko. Ni yung hidden emoticons, hindi ko pa malalaman kung hindi sinabi sa akin ni Jaimie.

Fuck Windows!!!

Tama! Fuck Windows! Naiinis na ako...

Noong una, nag-update ako ng Windows Media Player, para naman hindi mahuli 'tong player ko sa laptop ko. Syempre, excited ako kasi unang laptop ko 'to. Dapat hindi naman nahuhuli kahit na ordinaryo lang ang laptop ko at XP lang ang OS at Office 2003 lang ang Office ko.

Sige sige naman ako sa pag-download. OK lang kahit matagal, worth it naman - yun ang akala ko. Kasi nung na-download ko na yung supposedly bago kong Windows Media Player, e hiniritan ba naman ako ng verification blah blah at sinabing hindi ko raw magagamit yung Media player ko kasi hindi genuine ang Windows ko. Aba naman, nawindang talaga ako. Anong uri ng computer ang walang media player? Kaya nag-download ako ng Winamp. Buti na lang may alam ang kuya ko sa mga bagay na yan, naibalik niya yung dati kong Windows Media Player.

Kaya lang level 1 pa lang pala yun.

Shetness naman kasi. Excited ako para sa reflection paper ko sa Western History. May required kaming panoorin na pelikula: Monster, starring Christina Ricci (Bless the Child, Sleepy Hollow) at Charlice Theron (Aeon Flux). Natuwa pa man din ako kasi pwede na akong mag-download ng kahit ano dito sa laptop ko dahil sa bittorrent at sa DSL naming 100 Mbps kuno. Harhar...sige, naghanap lang ako ng pwede kong i-download. Wala sa mininova, o mahirap maghanap sa mininova, kaya nag-google search ako. May isang site lang akong pinuntahan, tapos Antivir 2008 ang lumabas sa screen ko imbes na yung site tungkol sa Monster.

Ok. Meron daw mga virus at mga malisyosong programs sa computer ko. Pinagpawisan naman ako nun. Biruin mo na man kasing kay bago-bago nitong laptop ko, maiimpeksyon na agad ng virus. E di nag-scan mag-isa yung Antivir 2008. Inaaamin ko, hindi ako masyadong nagtitiwala sa antivirus kong McAfee...pero sana alam kong mas hindi mapagkakatiwalaan yung mga inaalok ng Windows.

44 FILES NA INFECTED DAW NG TROJAN HORSE. SINO BANG HINDI MAG-PA-PANIC NIYAN?

Eto ang catch. Kailangan ko munang mag-register para makakuha ako ng lisensyang makagamit ng Antivir 2008. Shet. E hindi ko rin naman magagamit yung Antivir na inaalok ng Windows kasi sisitahin na naman nila akong hindi genuine ang Windows ko. What a scheme. Ang nakakatakot dito ay baka sila ang nag-install ng virus sa laptop ko. Baka nga ngayon meron na, pero sabi naman ng McAfee wala (nag-scan ako uli gamit ang McAfee matapos malamang may 44 trojan infected files daw sa laptop ko).

I hate them. Making money out of freaks like me. And I don't even have money!!! They're making me paranoid. No wonder why I'm having doubts whether I should continue downloading files through bittorrent or get things the way I used to get them - which ends up me not getting them at all. I don't know if they're screaming 'wolf' just for fun - well, just for money - or if it's really true that my laptop's infected. Crap.

As expected...

How evil are you?

But I would be more delighted if I am evil after all.

About the inner demons, that's quite true.

...suddenly, everything began to revolve around aesthetics.

Si Steven Strait daw bilang si Jacob Black. Hmmm...at naalala ko si Warren Peace ng Sky High (with the shoulder-length, silky, black hair) at yung bida sa The Covenant (para nga siyang si Edward Cullen du'n; saving the damsel-in-distress and all that family secrets and super powers...). Kunwari na lang hindi ko napanood yung 10000 BC (one of the worst movies ever!).

Conclusion:

Hmmm, definitely hot. =)

Pero galit/naiirita ako kay Jacob Black.

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May NSTP bukas, buti na lang kasama ko si Jaimie.

Tinulog ko ang buong maghapon.

I have to download A LOT of things in this thing.

Ang init.

Nakawala na naman ako ng panyo. Argh. Nagmamadali kasi ako from Theo class.

Rainy or sunny? Make up your mind, please...

May dalawa akong extra notebooks na artista ang pabalat. Gusto mo?

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...suddenly, everything began to revolve around aesthetics.

Nakakatawa.

"If you marry my brother, that would be interesting."
- Miss Missy Maramara

That would make me Rachel Valencerina Marra-Maramara. Hahahahaha...It's better than Julia Gulia (from The Wedding Singer).

Una

Time is fleeting...
- Rofel Brion


Photocopies. Readings. 1x1 ID pictures. 3X5 index cards. Syllabi. Grading system. Yahoo groups. Sociology. Creative Writing. Literature. Panitikan. Tai Chi. Grasp the bird's tail. Western History. Aesthetics. Beauty. Fine Arts. 500 peso book - a magnificent one. Theology. The Holy Bible. Planner. Notebooks. Highlighters. Papers. Group projects...




Stop and smell the flowers.

Packard Bell

May laptop na nga pala ako.

Pangako kasi 'to sa akin ni daddy. Kapag nakakuha raw kasi ako ng scholarship, bibilhan niya ako - pero yung abot-kaya lang. =)

Matagal ko nang pangarap ang magkaroon ng laptop. Elementary pa ako nun. Kung dati gusto ko ng laptop dahil cool, ngayon gusto ko ng laptop dahil sa convenience, at sa easy access sa private writing area ko. Nasabi ko na dati, na mas palagay akong mag-type kaysa magsulat gamit ang panulat. At, writer ako. O gusto kong maging isang magaling na writer. Alam kong hindi yun ang lohikal na dahilan para sa pangangailangan ko ng laptop, pero nakakatulong yun sa paghatak ng inspirasyon para sumulat (weird, alam ko).

Salamat naman sa Diyos at sa mga taong nagtitiwala sa akin, heto ako't may laptop na.

Packard Bell Easynote Fo336-v-089

Processor	Intel?Celeron?processor technology M440 1.86Ghz, 1MB L2 Cache, 533Mhz FSB
Chipset	Intel 945GM
OS	None
Graphics	ATI Radeon Xpress 200M
Graphics Memory	256MB Hyper Memory
Display Panel	15.4" Diamond View
Standard Memory	512MB
Hard Drive	80GB
Optical Drive	DVD±RW with Double Layer Support
Networking/Wireless	High speed 56K modem, integrated 10/100 LAN, 802.11b/g WLAN
Webcam	None
Media card	None
I/O Ports	USB 2.0 (3), VGA, RJ-11, RJ-45, headphone, microphone jack, Omni-directional microphones (2), AC adapter
Battery	6 cell Lithium Ion
Approximate Weight*	Full featured systems - 2.6Kg (5.72lbs)
Others	SoundBlaster Compatible

Simple lang ang design, akma lang sa pangangailangan ko. Malaki kung tutuusin pero magaan naman kahit papaano. Wala gaanong specs na makalaglag-baba, pero wala sa akin yun. Mura lang ang pagkakabili namin, di tulad ng mga mas sikat na brands pagdating sa mga laptops/notebooks. Hindi ko pa nasusubukan sa wi-fi internet. Sanay na ako sa touchpad bilang isang mouse, pero pakiramdam ko kakalyuhin ako. One and a half hour lang ang battery, at wala pa akong adapter - humihiram ako sa kanila.

Pwede ko raw dalhin sa school kung kinakailangan. Haha...pero easy lang daw.

This is my first laptop. Wow. Pangarap ko lang 'to dati.

Sa ngayon, dito ko binabasa ang Twilight series/saga ni Stephenie Meyer.

Planner needed

Disappointed ako kanina, kasi wala nang 2008 planner sa Nat'l Bookstore. Mahal kasi yung nasa LS Bookstore. At hindi kasi ako bumili nung kasagsagan ng Bagong Taon. Boblocks. Sabogaloids. Mangangalahati na yung taon, ngayon pa ako maghahanap ng planner? Hay...

Ang wirdo ko talaga.

Long weekend 2 (Book Sale Freak)

Nagbabasa ako ng New Moon kagabi sa Cavite (Oo, dinala ko talaga yung files ko sa Cavite para matapos ko na yung tatlong libro ni Stephenie Meyer na na-download ko sa internet), nang magtanong ang bunso kong kapatid kung kailang kami uuwi dito sa San Mateo. Sabi ninmama, baka gabi kinabukasan. Gabi ng Lunes. Sa isip ko, ok lang. May oras pa para maghanda ng gamit para sa unang araw ng pasukan. Habang nagbabasa ako, nilista ko sa isipan ko yung mga dapat kong ihanda. Sabay sinabi ko sa sarili ko, shet! wala akong gamit na ihahanda!

Kaya kaninang umaga ay nag-late shopping kami sa National Bookstore sa Robinson's Place sa Imus. Notebooks, ballpens, refill pages, etc...Essentials lang. Kaya lang, nung nasa pila na ang mama ko para magbayad, napagtripan ko lang na mag-browse ng mga libro. Nakita ko yung New Moon ni Stephenie Meyer. Ganun pala kakapal yun. Hindi ko pansin yung dami ng pages dahil sa Notepad ako nagbabasa. Nagduda tuloy ako. Sana hindi peke yung na-download kong Twilight series. (Tapos ko na yung New Moon, tatapusin ko na mamaya yung Eclipse). At wow naman, kasi may sale pala ng mga libro!

Hindi ako nakapagpigil kanina.

• Tending to Grace by Kimberly Newton Frusco
• Magic Seeds by V.S. Naipaul
• The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
• For a Night of Love by Emile Zola

Kahit hindi sale, binili rin namin ang mga 'to:

• Holy Bible. (Tig-isa kami ni kuya)
  
• Parman by David Hontiveros.

Wooh. Pasukan na naman. Kailan ko kaya mababasa 'tong mga libro?

Long weekend

Orsem's over. Hay, copy that. What an experience...Maglilista uli ako:

• Met new people/friends. Syempre yung mga Comm people at ibang LogCom volunteers.
• Been surrounded by total strangers...
  
• Nakaranas gumamit ng two-way radio. Cool talaga, haha.
• Nag-panic dahil sa mga nawawalang freshies, mga nahihimatay na freshies, mga nawawalang gamit, mahinang frequency sa Bellarmine at Leong Hall, etc.
• Nagkaroon ng crash course tungkol sa pag-ibig (at sa mga babae at lalaki at sa mga aso at pusa) care of Mike the philosopher - na pangarap iligtas ang Pilipinas (seryoso siya dun, at hindi yun nakakatawa. kasi naman, sinabi ko rin dati na ililigtas ko ang Humanidades).
• Nagkaroon ng "happy crush" (Kay Mike ko rin natutunan yang term na yan).
• Kumain ng Chickenjoy na walang gravy, nagkamay kasi walang kubyertos, kumain ng Burger Steak na nag-uumapaw sa malapot na gravy, at kumain ng Burger Steak na walang gravy.
• Pumila sa 7/11 booth for 15 minutes para sa isang Slurpy.
• Ate chocolate chip cookies topped with marsmallows. Impluwensiya ni Adriel.
• Orsem night!!!

Haha...dapat magkaroon ng bukod na listahan para sa Orsem night. Here it goes:

• I only heard Spongecola from afar. Papunta pa lang ako sa CovCourts nung patapos na yung performance nila. At least narinig ko uli si Yael na nag-scream.
• Fastpitch. Ang tagal ko na silang di naririnig.
• Pedicab! Wooo...ang cute talagang sumayaw nung bokalista. Ay, sus!
• Parokya ni Edgar. Haha, ang galing nila...saludo ako. Legend forever.
• ChicoSci. Uso yata sa kanila ang nagpapahaba ng buhok. Payatot pa rin sila. Haha, ayos lang, pero thrilled pa rin ako sa presence nila.
• Callalily. Hindi ko na sila napanood nang mabuti, busy na ako nun. Naghahanda na kasi ang mga LogCom para sa basaan. Pero parang napansin kong tumaba si Kean. =D
• URBANDUB!!! Lahat ng mga naunang banda, pinanood ko lang mula sa malayo. Paano ba naman, ang daming freshies. Hinayaan ko na silang mag-enjoy, kaya hindi na ako sumingit. Pero, nung Urbandub na...shet! Wala na akong pakialam! Hahahaha....Gabby Alipe, ang galing mo! Mangiyakngiyak na ako nung kinakanta nila yung First of Summer. Panaginip ba 'to? Wooohhh!!!! Sigaw ako nang sigaw! Muntik na akong magka-sore throat kakasigaw. Huhu...I love Urbandub. Nakita ko rin sila sa wakas. Napakinggan nang live. Yung dating pinakikinggan ko lang sa CD player at radyo, nakita ko na at napakinggan nang personal.

Masarap maging volunteer! Bakit? Dahil sa basaan! Weee.....TNT versus Log! Ang saya, kaya lang konti lang ang kakilala ko...hehe, pero masaya naman. Next year kaya? Hmmm...magvo-volunteer uli ako? Tingnan natin. =D

10:101

"Break Nest. This is Batibot."

"Go ahead, Batibot."

"10:101"

"Sino?"

"Si Mikee Lee...over."

• Ang ibig sabihin ng 10:101 sa code ng mga Comm. ay may artista.
• Tapos ko na ang Twilight ni Stephenie Meyer. Saka ko na masisimulan yung dalawang susunod na libro.
  
• Kahit na dinala ko yung The Summons ni John Grisham para hindi ako mainip, iisang chapter lang ang nabasa ko. Mas komportable kasing tumunganga sa mga freshies, maghintay ng 10:101, makinig sa mga tuksuhan at jokes sa two-way radios, at maghintay ng mga announcements tungkol sa mga nawawalang freshies.
• Mas gwapo si Mikee Lee sa personal kaysa sa t.v.
  
• May post ako sa Bellarmine bukas, at PIC (Person-in-charge) ako kung sakaling hindi babaguhin yung posts. Hindi aabot ang signal ng two-way radios sa Nest mula sa Bellarmine, kamusta naman yun?
• Muntik ko nang makalimutan, pagod nga pala ako.
• Day 2 na bukas. Sana maayos uli...
• The guy badly reminds me of Edward Cullen. I'm still dazzled.

"Break Nest. This is Batibot."

"Go ahead, Batibot."

"10:101"

"Sino?"

"We saw Father Nebres!"

"Hahahaha..."

Noisy

Yeah boy. Maglilista ako, wag kayong maingay!

• Pagod na naman ako
  
• Full ang sked ko sa una at pangalawang linggo ng pasukan. Haha, ok lang. Wala pa namang exams at papers (tapos yun pala meron ano).
• Day 1 ng Orsem 2008 bukas! Dadalhin ko yung librong The Summons ni John Grisham para naman matapos ko na. Marami raw kasing libreng oras ang mga Comm.
• Hehe, get ready for freebies!
• Bukas ko pa malalaman kung ano talaga ang silbi ko sa Orsem bilang isang miyembro ng Comm.
• I'm DYING to finish all three books in Stephenie Meyer's Twilight series.
• Sa wakas...pagkatapos ng ilang buwan, mararanasan ko na uling magkaroon ng cellphone load.
• Nasasanay na ako sa pagtawid sa overpass sa Aurora Blvd. Wag mo lang ipaalala sa akin na nasa ibabaw ako ng mga sasakyang halos nagliliparan na sa sobrang bilis at nasa ilalim ng tulay na dinaraanan din ng mga sasakyang mabibilis.
• Kamusta naman ang call time na 6:30 am - sa loob ng tatlong araw?
  
• Ang hirap manghula kung magkano na talaga ang pamasahe ngayon.
  

nO otheR univerSity doEs it the way we do | adMu

Taya

Pin tagged block E. As far as I can remember, I'm still in block E. I'm not myself today so I'm gonna answer this. By the way, I'm not going to tag anybody because I feel lazy. But before I go on with the questions, I need to make a list:

• pagod uli ako
  
• mainit sa covered courts
• ang daming freshies sa school
• O-film
• Liyab
• Twilight: hindi ko mapakawalan! I downloaded a .txt file from the net and just started reading it this morning. Muntik ko nang makalimutan na may general assembly ang mga volunteers para sa Orsem dahil sa kagustuhang wag mabitin sa kwento. Edward Cullen, dazzle me!
• si Father Dacanay!
  

RULES
[x] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
[x] These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

QUESTIONS
1. If you were betrayed by someone, what would you say to that person?
--->> "leave"

2. If the person tagging you loves you, what will you do/say?
--->> "thanks"

3. What's your take on the same-sex marriages?
--->> it's just fine, as long as they're not hurting anybody. it's their freedom anyway.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
--->> yes. kinda. i already have a draft of my future in my head, but i'm open to other options.

5. What is your ideal date like?
--->> unexpected. 'coincidental' - yun bang nagkataon na pareho kayong nasa mall - to have the feel that it's destined and it's written in the book of fate. THAT, is romantic enough for me.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
--->> being loved. as a matter of fact, i believe i can love a person just because of the fact that that someone loves me.

7. If the person you like doesn't accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
--->> no. i'm not that hopeful when it comes to...these things.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
--->> smile. and say, "here we go again".

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
--->> uhmmm....i don't know. i don't have any reason to be unhappy. bored, yes. tired, yes. but unhapy? na-ah. not now.

10. What do you want most in life?
--->> to be successful, to make people proud of what i've/i'll become...hehe, the list is endless and boring.

11. Is being tagged fun?
--->> yap. but it's the tagging-someone-else-after-you're-tagged that's not fun.

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your Bf/Gf, how would you react?
--->> shocked.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
--->> My family, and friends - which were quite few.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
--->> well, he thinks he's emo. he's a writer. hates his family. what else? he's a slave for his emotions. (hope you don't get mad with my descriptions...=D)

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
--->> haha, be single and rich...then get married. that's part of the draft i've been writing in my mind for some time now. oh, and yes, who the husband will be is part of the draft.

16. If the person you secretly like doesn't recognize you, what would you do/how will you react?
--->> shy away.

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
--->> depends.

18. If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
--->> the one who loves me/loves me more...which is logical. but we all know people have a tendency to become overly romantic, so there's a very slight chance that i might still choose the one who doesn't even give a hell about me - a very slight chance.

19. What type of friends do you like?
--->> those who do not forget. those who care...i'm choosy with my friends, and i told you before that i have quite a few of them. so my friends are my friends. no stabbing-behind-backs. everybody matters. nobody gets left behind. no secrets as far as possible. no tricks.

20. If you played a prank on someone, and s/he fell for the trick, what would you do?
--->> laugh out loud literally (yes, i am capable of doing that in certain situations). it's not usual for me to play a prank and become successful. commit to the moment.

A Pain in my Sawdust

Maikli lang 'to:

• pagod ako
• maraming nangyari ngayong araw na 'to
• sa isang iglap naging parte ako ng orsem '08
• cool ang pagsasalita sa two-way radio. cool.
  
• nakakatakot tumawid sa overpass
• OS, OS, OS...
• Packard Bell =D
• LS Bookstore
  
• Thank you sa lahat-lahat!
• mwah!
  

June 10...

Okay. Hindi ko gusto ang ginawa ko sa sked ko...Hindi nakatulong na first batch ako. Dahil sa pagpa-panic, hindi ko tuloy napansin na may tatlo akong sunod-sunod na klase. Ayos lang, kasama ko naman si Jaimie na tatakbo mula sa CTC papuntang Gonzaga tapos sa CTC uli. =)

Hay, isa't kalahating araw akong nanlumo. Pero...haha! May magandang balita ang kuya ko sa akin pag-uwi niya, may 50% scholarship ako!!! Grabe...Thank you, God!

At ni-recruit ako ng kuya ko para maging log comm sa darating na Orsem 2008. Wah! I'm gonna do The Banana again! Pero hindi ko pa alam kung makakaya kong makihalubilo sa mga tao...sa mga freshies. Wah, meeting new people sends me chills. Ewan ko kung bakit, pero kinakabahan talaga ako.

Balik eskwelahan uli ako...Yes, I'm gonna be home....=)